Tag Archive | Patience

9/7/2012 ~ Dear Future Husband

Dear Future Husband,
Honestly, I’m still doing better waiting for you. Finally! This week I’ve really been just trying to focus on God’s plan for my life and for even more immediately, His plan for this semester and how I can just tell He’s gonna blow this campus away using all of us for Him. And I’m excited. :)
So that’s been cool, I’m pretty stoked to see what He’s gonna do this year and who knows, maybe I’ll even run into you this year?
Waiting as always,
Hope Kristen

From To My Future Spouse Tumblr:
– To you and only you, I am an open book What would you like to know?

– Sometimes I ache for you so much that it hurts. I see all of my friends getting engaged, and I want that same relationship for myself so badly. It gives me hope that someday that will be the same for us. I cannot wait until the day that we are united together as man and wife.

– I can’t wait to bless you, to serve you, to honor you.
I am already so proud of you, and I will tell you everyday.
Praying for you always.

– Right now, I’m feeling the pain and sorrow that comes from seeing other people so happily in love. I know that when you arrive in my life that all the past will disappear and all will seem right again, but it’s still painful right now. Simply put, I’m ready for you to be in my life. I’m just asking a few small things: be patient, I am not going to trust you right off the bat; don’t push me, I’m stubborn and pushing me is only going to make me dig in my heels; and love me, I promise, in time, I’ll love you back. I’m growing into a Proverbs 31 woman, but I’ll never be perfect. Sorry.
Still Waiting,
Your Future Wife.
~Jeremiah 29:11~


The Last Battle

You all know by now that I have a very strong admiration towards C.S. Lewis, and those of you who have been reading for a while have heard me talk of my deep love for the Chronicles of Narnia series. One reason I love those 7 books so much is the fact that they are such a perfect allegory to the story of Christ and of our Christian faith. I think at times we have all acted like Edmund, being a traitor and not doing as we should, we’ve all been (Or should have all been) like Lucy, innocent and perfectly trusting in her childlike faith, we’ve all been a bit of Peter, strong, courageous and ready to fight for the cause. Unfortunately sometimes Christians can be like Susan too, at the end of the books where she rejected Narnia for things of the world claiming it was a fairy tale all along. The great thing is as much as we act like Susan and Edmund, God, like Aslan is welcoming us back and will always forgive. The last book of the series, The Last Battle, though not my favorite of the series because it’s sad and it’s the end, is a perfect allegory of the coming end of days. Some day this world as we know it will end and God will create a new Heaven and a New Earth for us. He’ll be waiting for us there and it will be perfect as He wants it to be. It’s sometimes hard to wait for that time. I know sometimes I can catch glimpses of how that life will be, on a sunny day, when a warm breeze passes by or when I’m so deep in worship that I can feel God right beside me and I feel homesick for that life. It’s hard but we have to be patient, we have to know that someday we will reach that new place and it will be perfect, more perfect than our human minds could ever imagine and in that day we will finally be home. This old world will pass away and we’ll never have to live without God’s glory being the number one prevalent thing in our lives. I for one can’t wait but in the meantime I’m working on doing God’s work and using everything He’s given me to be who He wants me to be.
Hope ♥

“I have come home at last! This is my real country! I belong here. This is the land I have been looking for all my life, though I never knew it till now…Come further up, come further in!”
― C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle

“And as He spoke, He no longer looked to them like a lion; but the things that began to happen after that were so great and beautiful that I cannot write them.”
― C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle

“Would it not be better to be dead than to have this horrible fear that Aslan has come and is not like the Aslan we have believed in and longed for? It is as if the sun rose one day and were a black sun.”
― C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle

“Emeth speaking of Aslan, “Beloved, said the Glorious One, unless thy desire had been for me thou wouldst not have sought so long and so truly. For all find what they truly seek…And since then, O Kings and Ladies, I have been wandering to find him and my happiness is so great that it even weakens me like a wound. And this is the marvel of marvels, that he called me Beloved, me who am but as a dog”
― C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle

“All their life in this world and all their adventures had only been the cover and the title page: now at last they were beginning Chapter One of the Great Story which no one on earth has read: which goes on for ever: in which every chapter is better than the one before.”
― C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle

Perhaps you will get some idea of it if you think like this. You may have been in a room in which there was a window that looked out on a lovely bay of the sea or a green valley that wound away among the mountains. And in the wall of that room opposite to the glass there may have been a looking glass. And the sea in the mirror, or the valley in the mirror, were in one sense just the same as the real ones: yet at the same time they were somehow different — deeper, more wonderful, more like places in a story: in a story you have never heard but very much want to know. The difference between the old Narnia and the new Narnia was like that. The new one was a deeper country: every rock and flower and blade of grass looked like it meant more. I can’t describe it any better than that: if you ever get there you will know what I mean.
It was the unicorn who summed up what everyone was feeling. He stamped his right fore-hoof on the ground and neighed, and then cried:
“I have come home at last! This is my real country! I belong here. This is the land I have been looking for all my life, though I never knew it till now. The reason why we loved the old Narnia so much is because it sometimes looked a little like this. Bree-hee-hee! Come further up, come further in!”
~ The Last Battle

“The term is over: the holidays have begun. The dream is ended: this is the morning.” And as He spoke He no longer looked to them like a lion; but the things that began to happen after that were so great and beautiful that I cannot
write them. And for us this is the end of all stories, and we can most truly say they all lived happily ever after. But for them it was only the beginning of the real story. All their life in this world and all their adventures in Narnia had only been the cover and the title page: now at last they were beginning Chapter One of the Great Story which no one on earth has read: which goes on for ever: in which every chapter is better than the one before.
~ The Last Battle

This is home
Now I’m finally
Where I belong
Where I belong
Yeah, this is home
I’ve been searching
For a place of my own
Now I’ve found it
Maybe this is home
Yeah, this is home
~ Switchfoot, written for the Prince Caspian soundtrack

4/27/2012 ~ Dear Future Husband

Due to my current hiatus from Tumblr, this weeks post will not include posts from the To My Future Spouse Tumblr. Next Friday will go back to our regularly scheduled posts.

Dear Future Husband,
God has been teaching me a lot this week and most of it has been about trusting Him. Yesterday in my quiet time I found a verse that really comforted me and reminded me to wait for you and for God’s perfect timing: Psalm 37:23 ~ The steps of the Godly are directed by the Lord. He delights in every detail of their lives. I thought that was cool because it’s true, God does care so much about even the little events in our lives, meeting our soul mate is way more than a little thing so why don’t I remember to perfectly trust and wait for His timing? He knows what’s going on. I should take comfort in that fact more often. Another verse that struck me yesterday was v 7 of Psalm 37, “Be still in the presence of the LORD, and wait patiently for him to act.” I definitely need to focus and meditate on these promises more often. God’s timing is always good, no matter how angsty and jealous and hopeless I feel about the situation, God has a plan and it’s better than I could plan for. God is good.
I love you dear and I can’t wait til we meet (But I am trying to be more patient)
Hope Kristen ♥

I am weak but He is strong.

I’m not really sure what’s going on with me right now. I wrote a few posts ago about how I’m finally feeling content with life and with being single, don’t worry, I haven’t regressed on that, I’m still feeling content with being single and God is doing some amazing things in my life, His works are so prevalent everyday, I’m so blessed. Despite all of this, something is wrong. I don’t know what but two nights ago this feeling of discouragement and disheartenment, nothing bad has happened, the weather is nice, I don’t have an unsual amount to do this week, it’s weird. Despite this feeling of gloom looming over me, I’m trying my hardest not to lose hope (Ok guys, you can stop laughing, I’m not purposely using my name as a pun…) and keep encouraged. Fortunately I’m blessed with amazing friends who cheer me up when I’m down and of course God’s word has got some amazing pieces of encouragement. I thought I would share some that I’ve found so far (and some that friends have found for me) so hopefully you all can be encouraged as well!

Exodus 19:5 “For you are my treasured possession” (Ok, how cool is that? We are God’s treasured possessions! Just thinking about it brightens my spirits considerably!)

Psalm 139:14 “For you are fearfully and wonderfully made”

Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust Him, don’t depend on yourself, God will take care of everything. Seek His will.”

Psalm 27:14 “Wait patiently for the Lord.”

Psalm 37:7 “Be still in the presence of the Lord.”

Romans 5:8 “I loved you at your darkest.”

Psalm 71:14 “But as for me I will always have hope.”

Hope ♥

“For I Know the Plans I Have for You”, declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” ~ Jeremiah 29:11

Sometimes I wonder what it’s like to have someone love you. To want to spend all their time with you, to smile when you text them, to think you’re pretty and all that sappy stuff. Sure, I’ve had two boyfriends in the past but those were both in High School and both lasted two months. They weren’t really real relationships and they never went anywhere, I’ve never been on a date and I’ve never been kissed. I’ve gotten to the point finally where I’m ok with being single, I know God has a plan for me and it’s better than what I tend to plan for myself but I do have that longing for someone to care, and to experience all of those things with. For someone to share my life with in that special way. Not that I’m saying I’m ready to get married, I’m definitely not but I am ready to be in a serious relationship. I want to have someone to care for that feels the same in return and have that soul mate I can laugh with, cry with, tell everything to and just have someone to hold me, and someone I can lean on. I know I’m bordering on sappy/angsty again but this time it’s not that I’m sad and impatient, I just wanted to write down how I’m feeling. I’m mostly content with waiting for God’s timing now, I know from experience that His timing is always best, I’m just wondering how long I will have to wait to find that person. Do I know him now? Does he already like me and I’m missing something? Do I like him and he doesn’t yet feel the same? Or have I yet to meet him and I need to continue to wait for a while? Obviously, I have no idea what the answers to these questions are and I will try to be continuously patient and prayerful and focused on what God wants me to do with my life while I wait. I do hope that, to borrow the phrase from Disney, “My prince will come” soon. Not that I’m expecting an actual prince, but whoever my soul mate is I’ll see him as a prince and he’ll be perfect to me. I often lose hope that someone is out there for me but at the same time as I feel this longing for someone, I know they have to be, God wouldn’t give me this feeling for nothing. So I’ll wait, I know whoever He has for me will be worth it.
Hope ♥

God is faithful

Ok, so in my last post I was a bit angsty and definitely not feeling how I wanted to which I apologize for. Since writing that, I’ve been in a lot of prayer and I got the chance to talk to some of my friends about how I was feeling about housing arrangements next year and the distance between us all. Since then I’ve started feeling much better and my friends have been a great comfort to me, I know that I shouldn’t have been worrying but the Devil was really using that to get to me.
Anyways, since then I’ve been feeling much better about that and I’m trying to be continually joyful and not complain about anything. As I currently have a cold with a terrible, hacking cough, I’m not doing as well at not complaining as I wish but I have gotten better in recent weeks. God has also really laid on my heart recently to just love everyone. In church on Sunday our pastor discussed that love is everything. Without it we are completely insignificant and not being Christ-like without love. We need to love everyone, including the people we dislike and that everyone dislikes like we love the people that we actually love. It was a super convicting message because it is hard sometimes to love the so-called unlovable but it doesn’t matter, that’s what we have to do. It was a great message and I’m working hard at feeling that love for everyone.
I hope you’re all having a great day!

Worry is not good.

I’m really bad at worrying. I know I shouldn’t be but I am. It’s not that I don’t trust God because I totally do but I worry about things. I worry about my feelings, I worry about the future, I worry about what people think of me. I hate it, the Bible very clearly many time says don’t worry. Pray about everything. And I do, I pray almost constantly but the devil keeps getting me down with all this worry. And now he’s been plaguing me with loneliness to. Which is stupid, I’m surrounded by friends, best friends all the time. But I still worry and feel lonely, I worry that my best friends this year will not be as close next year. We’ll be across campus from each other and I’m worried that since they’ll all be together next year they’ll forget about me and not have time for me. I hate this feeling, I’m just afraid and worried of being forgotten again. I am always forgotten, I always care more about others than they care about me. Always. And I hate it but I don’t know how to fix it. I just care too much. And these are the things that worry me. I hate it, I need to stop and just trust God. After all, even if I do lose everything else, I have God. And He’s the one that matters.
God, please help me stop worrying and being jealous and let me just focus on what I should. I hate being like this.

Philippians 4:6 ~ Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.

Hope ♥