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I Am Nowhere Near the Person I Should Be

Recently I’ve started (and will soon be finishing) the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan. For any of you who have not read it, I encourage you to go find it immediately and pick it up. It is a challenging, life changing book discussing how our lives as Christians should be, and discussing how often in our current society especially, most of us are just lukewarm Christians, living complacently in our faith but not being “radical”, not living like Christ called us to.
If you think about it, it’s so, so true, many of us “Christians” talk the talk all the time. We claim our faith, we’re open to telling people what we believe but only if they ask. We don’t want to inconvenience anybody, we don’t want to offend them. We’re happy in the lives we’ve been given and we certainly don’t want to be uncomfortable. Well you know what? That line of thinking is wrong. And no, I’m not pointing fingers I promise because I fall prey to that probably more than anyone I know. I screw up so much it’s ridiculous. I’m a hypocrite. I came to my new apartment this summer, knowing I would be lonely, even telling people that but telling people it’d be ok, I’d be fine because it’d be good, great even, I’d spend that time instead of being lonely drawing closer and closer to God, drawing in, living life how I’m meant to, all that jazz. But you know what? I haven’t done that. I’ve been here over a week and I’ve hardly opened my Bible. Yes, I went to church Sunday, yes, I went to a Bible study Tuesday but I haven’t actually put effort into it. Sure, I’ve prayed, but they’ve been selfish prayers, prayers like, “God, be with me, stop me from feeling lonely.” or half-hearted thank you’s that I’ve been safe and provided for here. I haven’t actually been open, and honest and dug in the Word like I should. I’ve been complacent. I haven’t shared my faith with anyone since I’ve gotten here. I’ve been wasting my time on the internet, day after day, watching YouTube videos, spending countless hours just browsing Tumblr and Facebook, not even having anything to do on them. Being bored. There’s nothing inherently wrong with spending time on the internet but there is a problem when I’m wasting the precious time that God has given me.
God has given me this life and He wants me to use this time, for Him, as the servant that I so often claim to be for Him. Jesus said, “Take up your cross and follow me”, I haven’t done that. I’ve hardly done anything inconvenient. Sure, it’s been bothersome a bit biking everywhere in the heat, but that wasn’t truly uncomfortable. People everyday all over the world are actually persecuted for their faith yet still stand up for it but I’m here living a blessed life, with everything I need, doing nothing. Sure, I’ve been lonely, I’ve been missing my friends a lot, but why? When I have God. The only one I really need. I claim all the time that He’s my best friend, and yeah, He should be, after all He’s done for me. But I wouldn’t treat any of my friends here on earth like I’ve treated Him. Putting Him at the back of my mind, not spending time with Him, not doing what He asked of me, when He sent the person He loved most in this UNIVERSE to DIE, a brutal, tortured, HORRID death, for ME. Because of my sin.
What am I doing with my life? Not the right things. That’s for sure.
So, I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again, but this time I mean it, and this time I’m going to make sure He’s at the forefront of my mind at all times and I’m going to live my life for Him. I’m going to treat Him like a real best friend treats their friend. I’m going to love Him, and respect Him, and honor Him and be the servant He asked me to be, the servant I need to be, and the servant He deserves to have.
From now on, I’m going to live like a Christian. I’m going to shout my faith from the mountains, I want everyone around me at all times to know of my Jesus, my best friend, my Savior. I want them to look at me and say, what does she have that I don’t have? Where does this love come from? And I’ll tell them, I’ll tell them exactly where it came from. Because it won’t be me, oh no, I don’t have strength or love like that. It’s all God.
Hope ♥

“If you read history you will find that the Christians who did the most for the present world were precisely those who thought most of the next. It is since Christians have largely ceased to think of the other world that they have become so ineffective in this.” ~ C.S. Lewis


The Last Battle

You all know by now that I have a very strong admiration towards C.S. Lewis, and those of you who have been reading for a while have heard me talk of my deep love for the Chronicles of Narnia series. One reason I love those 7 books so much is the fact that they are such a perfect allegory to the story of Christ and of our Christian faith. I think at times we have all acted like Edmund, being a traitor and not doing as we should, we’ve all been (Or should have all been) like Lucy, innocent and perfectly trusting in her childlike faith, we’ve all been a bit of Peter, strong, courageous and ready to fight for the cause. Unfortunately sometimes Christians can be like Susan too, at the end of the books where she rejected Narnia for things of the world claiming it was a fairy tale all along. The great thing is as much as we act like Susan and Edmund, God, like Aslan is welcoming us back and will always forgive. The last book of the series, The Last Battle, though not my favorite of the series because it’s sad and it’s the end, is a perfect allegory of the coming end of days. Some day this world as we know it will end and God will create a new Heaven and a New Earth for us. He’ll be waiting for us there and it will be perfect as He wants it to be. It’s sometimes hard to wait for that time. I know sometimes I can catch glimpses of how that life will be, on a sunny day, when a warm breeze passes by or when I’m so deep in worship that I can feel God right beside me and I feel homesick for that life. It’s hard but we have to be patient, we have to know that someday we will reach that new place and it will be perfect, more perfect than our human minds could ever imagine and in that day we will finally be home. This old world will pass away and we’ll never have to live without God’s glory being the number one prevalent thing in our lives. I for one can’t wait but in the meantime I’m working on doing God’s work and using everything He’s given me to be who He wants me to be.
Hope ♥

“I have come home at last! This is my real country! I belong here. This is the land I have been looking for all my life, though I never knew it till now…Come further up, come further in!”
― C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle

“And as He spoke, He no longer looked to them like a lion; but the things that began to happen after that were so great and beautiful that I cannot write them.”
― C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle

“Would it not be better to be dead than to have this horrible fear that Aslan has come and is not like the Aslan we have believed in and longed for? It is as if the sun rose one day and were a black sun.”
― C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle

“Emeth speaking of Aslan, “Beloved, said the Glorious One, unless thy desire had been for me thou wouldst not have sought so long and so truly. For all find what they truly seek…And since then, O Kings and Ladies, I have been wandering to find him and my happiness is so great that it even weakens me like a wound. And this is the marvel of marvels, that he called me Beloved, me who am but as a dog”
― C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle

“All their life in this world and all their adventures had only been the cover and the title page: now at last they were beginning Chapter One of the Great Story which no one on earth has read: which goes on for ever: in which every chapter is better than the one before.”
― C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle

Perhaps you will get some idea of it if you think like this. You may have been in a room in which there was a window that looked out on a lovely bay of the sea or a green valley that wound away among the mountains. And in the wall of that room opposite to the glass there may have been a looking glass. And the sea in the mirror, or the valley in the mirror, were in one sense just the same as the real ones: yet at the same time they were somehow different — deeper, more wonderful, more like places in a story: in a story you have never heard but very much want to know. The difference between the old Narnia and the new Narnia was like that. The new one was a deeper country: every rock and flower and blade of grass looked like it meant more. I can’t describe it any better than that: if you ever get there you will know what I mean.
It was the unicorn who summed up what everyone was feeling. He stamped his right fore-hoof on the ground and neighed, and then cried:
“I have come home at last! This is my real country! I belong here. This is the land I have been looking for all my life, though I never knew it till now. The reason why we loved the old Narnia so much is because it sometimes looked a little like this. Bree-hee-hee! Come further up, come further in!”
~ The Last Battle

“The term is over: the holidays have begun. The dream is ended: this is the morning.” And as He spoke He no longer looked to them like a lion; but the things that began to happen after that were so great and beautiful that I cannot
write them. And for us this is the end of all stories, and we can most truly say they all lived happily ever after. But for them it was only the beginning of the real story. All their life in this world and all their adventures in Narnia had only been the cover and the title page: now at last they were beginning Chapter One of the Great Story which no one on earth has read: which goes on for ever: in which every chapter is better than the one before.
~ The Last Battle

This is home
Now I’m finally
Where I belong
Where I belong
Yeah, this is home
I’ve been searching
For a place of my own
Now I’ve found it
Maybe this is home
Yeah, this is home
~ Switchfoot, written for the Prince Caspian soundtrack

God is freaking amazing.

Obviously the above statement is pretty much the biggest understatement there is but really, God is so cool. Last night Jared and I started talking like we often do and we talked a bit about our struggles and fears and then about how awesome God is and then we started listening to amazing worship music and we literally just layed there, on the floor at the end of the hallway praising God until 3 in the morning. It was absolutely incredible, there is nothing better in this world than praising God fully, with your whole body and mind, completely consumed by His glory and beauty. Then this morning, instead of going to church like I do every week, I decided it would be a better use of my time to wake up at almost the same time and go outside by myself and listen to more worship music, read my Bible and just pray. Being outside and reading my Bible is literally my favorite thing ever, I never feel as close to God as when I’m worshiping Him outside. It’s brilliant and I love it.
Needless to say, I’m just completely in love with God right now and I never want to lose this feeling, I’ve been doing a lot better recently of just keeping Him foremost in my mind and focusing on loving Him.
Our God is amazing.
Hope ♥

My God’s not dead, He’s surely alive. He’s living on the inside, roaring like a lion. ~ God’s Not Dead (Like a Lion) ~ Newsboys

You have called us loved
And you have called us wanted
One time we were bruised
We were bankrupt and haunted
~ Seen a Darkness – John Mark McMillan

“Unless I believe in God, I can’t believe in thought; so I can never use thought to disbelieve in God.” ~ C.S. Lewis

Books are the most special kind of magic there is.

Almost any of you know by now that reading is my favorite thing. It’s a way to escape reality, go to other worlds, meet characters that will stay with me forever. It’s truly a form of magic I believe. As John Green said in “Looking For Alaska, “When I look at my room, I see a girl who loves books.” That’s me. In my opinion you can never read too much, there’s always more books and stories to explore and enjoy. Anyways, as much as I discuss my love for reading, I’m not sure I’ve ever gone through and made a list of my all time favorite books for you. The list was hard to make, considering I read more than anyone I’ve ever met but here’s a few that will stay with me forever. Enjoy!

“Sometimes, you read a book and it fills you with this weird evangelical zeal, and you become convinced that the shattered world will never be put back together unless and until all living humans read the book.” ~ John Green – The Fault In Our Stars

The best way to get children excited about reading is to read to them from the beginning of their lives.” ~ J. K. Rowling

I don’t believe in the kind of magic in my books. But I do believe something very magical can happen when you read a good book. ~ J. K. Rowling

7. Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge
This book is an inspirational, Christian book written to “Unveil the mystery of the Woman’s Soul”. Wow. Ok, I realize that sounds uber cheesy and weird but it’s actually really good. It’s hard to explain really but it’s a book I think every girl (and any guy that wants to understand women better) should read. John Eldredge wrote a book called “Wild at Heart” that was the guy’s version of this book then him and his wife Stasi decided to write Captivating. Amazon’s website has this summary about the book:

“Every little girl has dreams of being swept up into a great adventure, of being the beautiful princess. Sadly, when women grow up, they are often swept up into a life filled merely with duty and demands. Many Christian women are tired, struggling under the weight of the pressure to be a “good servant,” a nurturing caregiver, or a capable home manager. What Wild at Heart did for men, Captivating is doing for women. Setting their hearts free. This groundbreaking book shows readers the glorious design of women before the fall, describes how the feminine heart can be restored, and casts a vision for the power, freedom, and beauty of a woman released to be all she was meant to be. By revealing the core desires every woman shares-to be romanced, to play an irreplaceable role in a grand adventure, and to unveil beauty-John and Stasi Eldredge invite women to recover their feminine hearts, created in the image of an intimate and passionate God. Further, they encourage men to discover the secret of a woman’s soul and to delight in the beauty and strength women were created to offer.”

Anyways, you should all read it. :)

6. The Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis
I discuss quite often on here how C.S. Lewis is one of my all time favorite people and is my role model and inspiration for life. These books were the first things I ever read by him, in second grade. Since then, I’ve re-read them all, yes, all 7 of them every single summer. I know they’re children’s books but something about the magic, the allegory of Christ, the wit, the characters, it makes me feel this need for something. The need for adventure and excitement. “No book is really worth reading at the age of ten which is not equally – and often far more – worth reading at the age of fifty and beyond.” ~ C.S. Lewis – I feel like that quote is relevant about these books especially. These books were some of the first that I ever read and probably impacted my view on reading a great deal. These books remind me of one of my favorite quotes, one that happens to be by Lewis.

“If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.”

They’re perfect.

5. Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller
Another book that has changed my life forever and one that is actually being turned into a movie that will be released later this month! This book is described as “Nonreligious thoughts on Christian Spirituality” and follows the life of Donald Miller as he grows in his faith. It’s a really interesting read and so good that I immediately bought it off of Amazon (Jared had the book and I borrowed it from him to read it). Definitely a must read. What Amazon said:

“”I never liked jazz music because jazz music doesn’t resolve. I used to not like God because God didn’t resolve. But that was before any of this happened.” ―Donald Miller In Donald Miller’s early years, he was vaguely familiar with a distant God. But when he came to know Jesus Christ, he pursued the Christian life with great zeal. Within a few years he had a successful ministry that ultimately left him feeling empty, burned out, and, once again, far away from God. In this intimate, soul-searching account, Miller describes his remarkable journey back to a culturally relevant, infinitely loving God. For anyone wondering if the Christian faith is still relevant in a postmodern culture.”

4. The Lord of the Rings by J.R.R. Tolkien
In addition to being a nerd in every other sense of the word, I am deeply interested in the fantasy world of Middle Earth created by Tolkien. The elves, the hobbits, the story, the whole adventure of it. Fantasy books mean so much to me because of things like that. I can immerse myself in other worlds and pretend that I’m on the adventures with the Fellowship. I fell in love with these books for the first time in 6th grade and I’ve stayed in love since then. In fact, that is of course where my blog name came from, my love of the elves and of Jesus. :)

3. Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis
I read this one over Christmas break simultaneously with my dear friend Jared then once we were done (We live like 4 hours apart) we Skyped about it and discussed it’s amazingness. It’s one of the most amazing and encouraging books I’ve ever read. It’s truly like C.S. Lewis had an inside conversation with God. Amazing.
What Amazon said:

“A forceful and accessible discussion of Christian belief that has become one of the most popular introductions to Christianity and one of the most popular of Lewis’s books. Uncovers common ground upon which all Christians can stand together.”

2. The Harry Potter series by J.K. Rowling
Yes, I’m sure this being on the list comes as a shock to you all. There’s clearly no love of Harry Potter from this girl right? Anyways, I’m pretty sure you all know my deep love of these books. They’ve changed my life, permanently, and made it so much better. The characters are some of my favorites of all time, they’ve taught me to be brave, courageous, loyal and never give up on things that matter. They’ve taught me that and so much more. J.K. Rowling is amazing. For more of my thoughts on the series, here is an older post I wrote: https://elvishjesusfreak.wordpress.com/2011/07/07/my-harry-potter-story/

1. The Fault In Our Stars by John Green
Before this book came out I had a post about how excited I was for it and how I had pre-ordered it but I’m not sure I ever wrote my thoughts about it. That’s because this book was the most amazing book I’ve ever read. I don’t even know how to describe it. It’s perfect. I’ve liked all of John Green’s books that I’ve read and I absolutely adore watching his and his brother Hank’s videos on YouTube but this is like nothing I’ve ever read. As much as the other books listed mean to me, this one touched me in a way none other has. Through this book I literally laughed and then cried, no book has ever led me on such an emotional roller coaster and despite the hundreds if not thousands of books I’ve read in my life, I’ve never felt such an emotional connection to any characters in my life. I warn you all, it’s not a happy book but I believe if you read it, you will never regret it. If I don’t remember any other book in my life, I will remember this one. It will stay with me forever.
What Amazon said:

“Despite the tumor-shrinking medical miracle that has bought her a few years, Hazel has never been anything but terminal, her final chapter inscribed upon diagnosis. But when a gorgeous plot twist named Augustus Waters suddenly appears at Cancer Kid Support Group, Hazel’s story is about to be completely rewritten. Insightful, bold, irreverent, and raw, The Fault in Our Stars is award-winning author John Green’s most ambitious and heartbreaking work yet, brilliantly exploring the funny, thrilling, and tragic business of being alive and in love.”

“Books are the ultimate Dumpees: put them down and they’ll wait for you forever; pay attention to them and they always love you back.” ~ John Green – An Abundance of Katherines

C.S. Lewis Quotes

I love this post, so I had to share. And as you all know C.S. Lewis is my absolute favorite. :)

I Wish It Was Easier To Know What God Wants

This week I’ve been struggling a lot with the issue of whether to do something or not. I won’t get into details about it but I’ll just say it’s something quite a few people were telling me to do and I wasn’t sure whether I should or not. After a lot of prayer, a lot of Godly advice from wonderful friends and a wonderful message about prayer at Navigators student ministry on Thursday I think I’ve finally decided what to do. It’s kinda of a scary decision but I think it will be best and I’m pretty sure at this point it’s what God wants. This whole situation however has got me thinking, I want to please God more than anything and I so desire to do His will. But it’s so hard to figure out whether it’s my will so I’m looking for signs to show that God wants me too or if God is actually telling me to or something else. I’m afraid I’m sometimes being too timid on things because I don’t want to go against God’s will and just do my own thing. It’s something I’m really struggling with and despite all my prayer I’m still not entirely sure of the answer but I guess that I’ll just have to trust that as long as I want God’s will to happen I just have to trust that He’ll take whatever actions and use them for Him and I’ll just try my best to obey Him. If any of you have any advice on this subject, I would for sure love to hear it! I hope you’re all doing well and I love you all! Also, if you wouldn’t mind praying for me about the decision I’ve made, that would be swell. :)
Hope ♥

“I have one reason why you should walk away from that temptation right now. One reason: GOD. IS. BETTER.” – Francis Chan

And surely I am with you always to the very end of the age. ~ Matthew 28:20

On the day that you die and have to face God, do you honestly believe He will care about how many followers you had on tumblr or how many notes your posts got? No. He’ll want to know how you lived your life to glorify Him, and lead others to Him. Don’t forget about what really matters.

He rescued me because He delighted in me. – Psalm 18:19

I am a Christian because I love Christ, not because I’m afraid of Hell.

“I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.” ~ Augusten Burroughs

“I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.” – C.S. Lewis

“It occurs to me it is not so much the aim of the Devil to lure me with evil as it is to preoccupy me with the meaningless.” – Donald Miller

My children, we must not only talk about loving people; we must show we love people by what we do for them. We must really love them. ~ 1 John 3:18

Happy New Year! Have some quotes. :)

So, I bet since it’s New Years Eve you were expecting a stereotypical post about goodbye 2011, hello 2012 and everything about that. Well guess what? That’s not what I’m gonna write about. Nope. I’m gonna do the unexpected and write about something completely different! This post is going to be about some inspiring quotes, and please, if you have any meaningful Bible verses or quotes, please share!

– O that day when freed from sinning, I shall see Thy lovely face.
Take my heart Lord, take and seal it. Seal it for Thy courts above ~ Come Thou Fount

– He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds. – Psalm 147:3

– And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by You? ~ Everything by Lifehouse

– If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world. ~ C.S. Lewis

– Love is not affectionate feeling, but a steady wish for the loved person’s ultimate good as far as it can be obtained. ~ C.S. Lewis

– We are far too easily pleased. ~ C.S. Lewis

– All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen. ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

– For God has said, “I will never fail you. I will never abandon you.” ~ Hebrews 13:5

– You were made to meet your maker. ~ Mumford and Sons

– Love that will not betray you,
dismay or enslave you,
It will set you free
Be more like the man
you were made to be.
There is a design,
An alignment to cry,
At my heart you see,
The beauty of love
as it was made to be
~ Mumford and Sons

– It seems that all my bridges have been burned,
But, you say that’s exactly how this grace thing works
It’s not the long walk home
that will change this heart,
But the welcome I receive with the restart
~ Mumford and Sons

– But you are not alone in this ~ Mumford and Sons

– How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes
I struggle to find any truth in your lies
And now my heart stumbles on things I don’t know
This weakness I feel I must finally show
Lend me your hand and we’ll conquer them all
But lend me your heart and I’ll just let you fall
Lend me your eyes I can change what you see
But your soul you must keep, totally free
In these bodies we will live, in these bodies we will die
Where you invest your love, you invest your life
In these bodies we will live, in these bodies we will die
Where you invest your love, you invest your life
~ Mumford and Sons

– This is the last night you’ll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I’m everywhere you want me to be.
The last night you’ll spend alone,
I’ll wrap you in my arms and I won’t let go,
I’m everything you need me to be.
~ Skillet

– Stay up late and we’d talk all night
In a dark room lit by the TV light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
We’d listen to the radio play all night
Didn’t want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
~ Skillet

– Now I’m in our secret place
Alone in your embrace
Where all my wrongs have been erased
You have forgiven
All the promises and lies
All the times I compromise
All the times you were denied
You have forgiven
~ Skillet

– Today I’m gonna try a little harder
Gonna make every minute last longer
Gonna learn to forgive and forget
‘Cause we don’t have long, gonna make the most of it
Today I’m gonna love my enemies
Reach out to somebody who needs me
Make a change, make the world a better place
‘Cause tomorrow could be one day too late
One day too late
One day too late
~ Skillet

– Never underestimate my Jesus.
You’re telling me that there’s no hope.
I’m telling you you’re wrong.
~ Relient K

Happy New Year everyone!

Hope ♥