Worry is not good.
I’m really bad at worrying. I know I shouldn’t be but I am. It’s not that I don’t trust God because I totally do but I worry about things. I worry about my feelings, I worry about the future, I worry about what people think of me. I hate it, the Bible very clearly many time says don’t worry. Pray about everything. And I do, I pray almost constantly but the devil keeps getting me down with all this worry. And now he’s been plaguing me with loneliness to. Which is stupid, I’m surrounded by friends, best friends all the time. But I still worry and feel lonely, I worry that my best friends this year will not be as close next year. We’ll be across campus from each other and I’m worried that since they’ll all be together next year they’ll forget about me and not have time for me. I hate this feeling, I’m just afraid and worried of being forgotten again. I am always forgotten, I always care more about others than they care about me. Always. And I hate it but I don’t know how to fix it. I just care too much. And these are the things that worry me. I hate it, I need to stop and just trust God. After all, even if I do lose everything else, I have God. And He’s the one that matters.
God, please help me stop worrying and being jealous and let me just focus on what I should. I hate being like this.
Philippians 4:6 ~ Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.