As many of you I’m sure know, today, March 1 is self-harm awareness day.
As someone who has self-harmed, I understand the pain that leads to that feeling. The feeling that any physical pain will be better than the pain that haunts your mind, the pain that you can’t do anything about, so you hurt yourself, to take your mind off the other pain. I understand it well, and it sucks, you feel so alone and everything hurts.
I want you all to know that I’m here to talk, if any of you ever need it. If you need anything at all, I will respond as soon as possible. That’s one reason I’m here, I’m always here to help, and to listen. I might not be able to fix the situation or even give you advice but if you need a listening, un-judging ear, you know how to contact me.
In the meantime, try to do something to get your mind off it, emerge yourself in something that makes you happy. Internet, art, TV shows, fangirling, anything. Just know that you, no matter who you are deserve love and you are worth so much and I love you.
Stay strong, ok? And if you need more than I can do, there are places designed specifically for helping. I’ll leave some links below.
It’s a new year. I’m going to work on being a new person. I’m not going to have resolutions, per se, because those never seem to work. Instead, I’m just going to work on moving forward, not only surviving but thriving. Being the best I can be, becoming stronger, more ok with myself and become more of who God wants me to be.
This year I’m not going to sit around and waste my life. I’m not going home for breaks, I’m going to work and adventure as much as I can. I’m going to find new experiences, to not be afraid to love and care. To trust people, to know it’s sometimes ok to be vulnerable, to not be so afraid of being hurt that I miss out on other things.
This year, in 2013, I’m going to live.
Taken from Twitter:
– In 2013, I will stop assuming that my opinions don’t matter and I will stand up for myself and my beliefs.
– 2012: when everything fell apart 2013: when I fix broken relationships, move forward, & rediscover who I am
– New year. New loves. New memories. New hope. New goals. New places. Change is possible. I’m moving forward
– To a new year: with all the dreams & hopes for tomorrow, the memories without their sting, & a new day to start again.
– To be mentally healthy. Because once I control what’s in my mind then my world can change & broken pieces come together.
– I will overcome my pain & struggles. I will focus on those who love me and the ones I love. 2013 will be good.
September 10 is World Suicide Prevention Day. As someone who has known people who’ve had suicidal thoughts, self-harmed and as someone who has often struggled with depression, this day is quite important to me to get the word out. Thousands of people die from suicide every day and the fact that there are that many people out there struggling, hurting and feeling unloved or worthless is absolutely terrible. I wish there was something I could do, someone to show the hurting that they are loved. That there is hope and that they are living a story and they should not give up.
To me, that’s why TWLOHA is so important, that’s their mission, to help people know that and to know that rescue is possible. Their organization is incredible and I wish I could do more to help them, they’ve helped so many people, which is absolutely incredible to know.
Part of my personality is taking on the hurts of others, I would rather take on the pains of all the people I know than to see my friends hurting even a little, it physically makes me hurt when I know someone is struggling and I can’t help them. To know that people are out there that feel worthless and unloved and feel that taking their lives is the worst thing I can think of, I wish there was some way to let those people know how loved they are, to just give them a hug and let them know someone cares.
So if you reading this, ever feels that way, if you feel like harming yourself or killing yourself, please don’t. Please, remember that I love you and that God loves you. You are living an incredible story that God is in the process of writing for you. You were meant to do great things. Don’t give up.
My friend’s Vlog on the matter:
I know I’ve spoken many times on here about the organization To Write Love On Her Arms (TWLOHA). Within the last year they created a project called “Fears Vs. Dreams” basically having people outline their fears they hope to overcome and their goals they hope to accomplish. As always with TWLOHA, it’s a really cool project that has touched many lives and I am sure will continue to touch many more. Today I’ve still been struggling a little bit with my depression that I’ve been feelings these past few days so I went on the TWLOHA site to read some of their blog entries. In the process I was reminded of Fears vs. Dreams and inspired to write my own post about the matter.
Fear: Never being loved and always being forgotten.
Dreams: Sharing hope and love with everyone, being happy, having someone to love me the way I love them.
I feel like both of these are fairly self-explanatory but I suppose I’ll go into a bit more detail. As any of my long time readers know, I have struggled with feeling good enough and loved and have unfortunately struggled many times with being the forgotten friend. That is my biggest fear and one that I’m really trying to get over but really struggling with.
My hopes are kind of the opposite, I long and hope to someday have a lasting forever kind of love, not like one that you read about in love stories because those are dumb and sappy, but a brilliant love story that’s so great it could only be written by God. Also to share hope and love with people, it makes my day when people go out of their way to care about me or be nice to me and I want to do the same for others. I want to share hope and love with everyone I come across, and brighten their days. :)
I am living a story. I will not give up.
I’ve spoken before about the organization of To Write Love On Her Arms, an organization dedicated to helping people who are depressed, suicidal and who self-harm. Today, March 30, 2012 is the 6th year anniversary of their creation. The story behind it is an amazing one though it’s a bit long so I’ll let you look at that on your own at http://www.twloha.com/vision/ For their anniversary they’ve started the Wear TWLOHA campaign (On Twitter its #wearTWLOHA) that has people tweeting in about why we wear TWLOHA, what we get out of it. That’s what this post is about. Why do I wear TWLOHA, why do I support this ministry so much? It’s because of the love this ministry shows, of caring for people who don’t feel good about themselves. For spreading hope and love. For letting people know they’re not alone. I’ve known so many people who have felt hopeless and discouraged and depressed and I hate that anyone feels like that ever. I hate that anyone ever feels alone. That’s why I wear TWLOHA. It’s an amazing organization and sometime I would love to help them more. For now, I’ll stick with buying their shirts and wristbands and supporting them in all I can.
Hope is real. Help is real.