December 12: Hope then dramatically hurled all her papers and threw them in the trash because she was finally finished with finals.
December 13: Having a Lord of the Rings marathon is the best way to prepare for the Hobbit tonight!!
December 14: Oh my gosh. The Hobbit. I can’t. My feels. Peter Jackson. Ah. I don’t even have words.
December 16: I wish I could just hibernate through break. I feel like that situation would be a win for everyone involved.
December 19: “How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on… when in your heart you begin to understand… there is no going back?” ~ Frodo Baggins
* Obviously not one I wrote but was incredibly relevant throughout break.*
December 20: Accordion to a recent survey, replacing words with the names of musical instruments in a sentence often goes undetected.
December 20: Well, if the world does end tomorrow, at least my last act today was a Star Wars party and finding more Redditors. Excellent.
December 21: “I was so alone, and I owe you so much.” ~ John Watson *Bursts into never ending tears* Why. Why did I re-watch The Reichenbach Fall.
December 22: You all think the Mayans were wrong about the world ending, but did you stop to think that maybe someone was out there stopping our impending doom? “And his name is The Doctor. He has saved your lives so many times and you never even knew he was there. He never stops, he never stays, he never asks to be thanked. But I’ve seen him, I know him. I love him. And I know what he can do.”
December 22: I can now confirm that the Hobbit is even better the second time around and is in fact worth seeing in IMAX 3D. Peter Jackson, you flawless person, I need to give you a hug.
December 24: Me: Hey dad, Noelle, do you want to hear how fast I can named the dwarves of the Hobbit?
Me: Fili, Kili, Nori, Ori, Dori, Dwalin, Balin, Bifur, Bofur, Bombur, Oin, Gloin and Thorin.
Dad: Was Tolkien on drugs when naming them?
Me: WHAT!? No! Obviously their names sound the same because they’re related!
Dad: I can’t believe you can say all those names with a serious face…
Me: HOW ELSE WOULD YOU SAY THEM!? Here are the pictures.
*starts pointing out each dwarf*
*Dad starts looking away*
Me: Dad, LOOK. THORIN!
Dad: I’m IGNORIN’.
*Sigh* My family…
December 25: Dear body,
When I set my laptop away and laid under my covers with my eyes closed, it meant that I wanted to go to sleep, not suddenly become more awake than I’ve been for the rest of the day. I don’t think you understand, I actually have to wake up early in the morning and I would like some sleep for that so I don’t fall asleep randomly or have yet another headache tomorrow.
So yeah… if I could fall asleep some time really soon, that’d be a cool Christmas present.
December 31: I’m sure glad I have Facebook to let me know it snowed outside. Otherwise I would have never been able to tell by looking out my window or anything. Also, the only thing that makes this snow ok is apparently they named this winter storm Gandalf. So, that’s acceptable I suppose.
December 31: I felt like I should post a deep, moving status before the end of the year, maybe mention my goals for 2013 or how much I love everyone but while I do love you all, I’m afraid I really don’t have anything deep to say. What I do have to say is I’m spending my last minutes of 2012 doing what means a lot to me, watching Doctor Who with a friend. Happy New Year friends, may we spend this new year with those we care about and be the best we can and do what’s important. I’m blessed to have you all in my life. :)
January 1: “Hope is like an older, excitable puppy… Or an older basset hound.. You can’t say no when she asks you nicely.” ~ Michael – Nicest thing anyone has ever said about me.
January 1: Noelle: Wow, it got really quiet in here.
Tj: Oh sorry… That’s because I was thinking about para-pelagic penguins. Like if I found one, I would keep it as a pet. Because then it couldn’t run away.
January 4: Sometimes when I get bored I compile pictures of how drastically my hair has changed since I graduated high school, and even that wasn’t my natural hair color, in fact, over half of you have never even seen my natural hair. But hey, what’s hair for if you can’t change it, right? :DJanuary 4: Dear person who just drove by me as I was laying down taking pictures in my yard,
Please don’t give me that strange look. Sometimes the clouds look awesome and need to be photographed immediately and one doesn’t always have time to change out of their fuzzy socks and put on shoes.
A girl obsessed with taking pictures (Especially of awesome clouds)
January 9: Well, it took me long enough but I have finally finished all of Firefly and Serenity. It was beautiful, flawless and heartbreaking and I will never know why it only got one season. Also thanks for breaking my heart, Joss Whedon. You can go join the list of people I both love and hate simultaneously with Steven Moffat.
January 14: In buying textbooks for my classes I discovered that one of my Criminology classes requires a Batman comic books for the class. Something tells me I’ll enjoy this class.
January 14: Finally learned how to play Yu-Gi-Oh tonight thanks to Megan. And after at least 30 of you had told me to, I finally started Breaking Bad. So yeah, that’s how I’m spending the last week before school starts…
January 16: *Boss walks into work*
Boss: Hi, Hope! We missed you. I heard you were a hipster.
Me: Um.. why am I hipster?
Boss: Oh I found a rap about hipsters on YouTube! I heard you were one.
Me: Oh, ok then…
January 16: This job makes me lose faith in humanity. It scares me a bit how many idiots they let into college. *Sigh*
January 17: It’s starting to become a daily occurrence for me to get in an intense DC vs Marvel debate. I regret nothing.
I know that Christmas time usually tends to bring out people’s materialistic side and people tend to get greedy and everything but I realized something recently that hit me especially yesterday. I hate stuff. Like, yeah, some stuff is cool and I do really enjoy having books and my fandom related objects but honestly, I have way too much stuff.
Being home and being in my childhood room (Well, kinda, I mean, I moved here at the beginning of High School but when we moved I didn’t go through much stuff, we pretty much just packed everything in a hurry and came to Kansas, so I still have a ton of childhood stuff in my room!) has made me realize how much crap is in here and I’ve started going through it and throwing away stuff and packing up stuff to give away (Another thing I’ve realized, as a child I kept EVERY PAPER from ANYTHING. Oh my…). I don’t need any of this. I mean, everything I need is in my dorm room anyways, the stuff that remains here is just stuff I haven’t spent time going through yet and need to get rid of.
Another thing is, I’ve grown up in my house with tons of random crap EVERYWHERE. I mean for real, our house is never clean in any form because my parents have papers and things they found on sale so they bought in every room in the house (Including all over my room now that I’m not here most of the time. When I got back for break, I couldn’t see my floor. Or my bed because of TONS OF PAPERS) and that’s made me also not care about having stuff, it’s a nuisance and it’s not like any of these things are ever used, they’re all for “just in case”, most of them not even useful.
I want to get rid of everything I don’t need. For real. Other than clothes and things I actually need (Ok fine, also not my fandom stuff or my books) but everything else, I want it gone. I have too much stuff, other people need these things and I don’t. I don’t want or need gifts, time and people are what’s important to me. When people choose to spend their time with me, that means way more than a gift does, anyone can give a gift, people who care give their time.
I want to be a minimalist. Have the least amount possible. The things I want to keep are what matter to me. And people. I want to keep them.
Everyone I know, on the internet, in real life, everywhere has been complaining about feeling un-Christmassy this year and it’s true. I don’t know what’s wrong, I mean, for a while I just assumed it was me because with our family we haven’t had an even close to good Christmas since 2003 but hearing everyone else have a problem too, I’m confused. I don’t know what’s wrong.
So here it is, Christmas Eve, 5 pm. My family always opens our presents this night (Usually around 10 or so) after we drive around and look at Christmas lights. There’s usually a lot of fighting and arguing all the way through and then somewhere in the middle dad remembers that we haven’t read the Christmas story from Luke so we pause everything and do that. Then mom gets tired and mad and yells something about how we’ll just finish in the morning.
Honestly? I don’t care about presents, at all. Sure, it’s nice when someone finds something they know I’ll enjoy and gets it for me, but I don’t need anything right now and I don’t want anything really either. It’s just stuff, I’d rather have a nice time with people, time is what I care about. And I would in a heartbeat give up all my Christmas presents just to have a nice, fun time with my family where we all at least acted like we liked each other. And more importantly, since when is Christmas about us anyways? It’s not. Christmas is (or should be..) about Christ, and His birth, FOR US. That’s the present we all need, the one that none of us deserved but that we all get because God loves us so much.
So why can’t we just take some time to think about that instead of fight?
Happy Christmas everyone! Thanks for continuing to read my ups and downs and angst all the time, and I hope you all have a truly wonderful Christmas celebrating the true reason for the season! <3
I wonder if I’ll ever have a holiday where I’m happy. Where I don’t feel like crying and where my whole family isn’t mad at each other. I wonder every holiday what it would be like to have a family that loved me, or acted like a family or was happy for even an hour. I wonder what it’s like to not have a mom who blames you and your sister and your dad for everything that goes wrong in her life and I wonder what it’s like to have a mom who doesn’t storm out, crying and slamming the door behind her. I dream of someday knowing what that’s like, of someday feeling the Christmas spirit that all the books and the movies and the songs talk about, of feeling loved and happy.
Dad, you apologize for how mom is but you’re the only one who could do anything about it. You and mom always say the man should be the head of the household but you let mom drag you around and you agree with whatever she says to her face then later come to us and say sorry for her actions. If you were really sorry you’d stop it, or at least try. Saying sorry doesn’t fix anything, it’s the actions that do. For once in your life stand up for someone, anyone, me, Noelle, yourself, don’t let mom and her psychotic ways keep dragging our family around making us miserable 24/7. I know it sucks for you just as much if not more as it does for me and my sister but you’re honestly the only one who could stop it. And you’re also the only one who made a choice to belong to this family. On my Facebook I keep seeing people complaining about what they did or didn’t get for Christmas, I don’t care that no one asks me what I want and that I get things I can’t use, I really don’t. I just want to be happy on a holiday. For once. Why is that so much to ask? It’s not about the presents anyways. It’s about Jesus, He’s the whole reason for the season and we couldn’t even focus on that. We tried to read the Christmas story from Luke and mom said it was too late, that it wasn’t the right time and how could we be so ridiculous to want to read it now. Well don’t you all think that’s a bit backward? Presents instead of reading the Christmas story? The Christmas story is the only thing that matters. There wouldn’t be a Christmas without Jesus but more importantly there wouldn’t be any life living. Who cares about the presents and the lights and the Christmas music? I mean yeah, those things are great but there nothing with Christ. So please, why can’t we just focus on Him and at least act like we like each other. For once. Please, before you break mine and more importantly my sister’s hearts. You’re destroying us. This year at school I’ve learned to be strong and because of my friends back at school and because of my relationship with Christ and because of fantasy worlds like Doctor Who and even because I have this blog I can stay strong and survive this but my sister has to stay here year round with you all by herself and I don’t know if she can take it. She’s strong but even the strongest would crumble here.
Please, just be nice.
Suddenly, an angel of the Lord appeared among them…;’Don’t be afraid!’ he said. ‘I bring you good news that will bring great joy to all people. The Savior – yes, the Messiah, the Lord – has been born today in Bethlehem, the city of David!’
~ Matthew 2:10-11
God is so amazing! Tomorrow is the day we celebrate the day God sent His only son to be born to this world as a baby who would grow up to save the world. It’s so amazing to think that He came into the world so humbly, not at all like you would expect the King of Kings and Savior of the World to come into being. You would expect Him to have come with a grand entrance to let everyone know He was here, not in a little stable in Bethlehem where hardly anyone knew it was happening. But that’s the kind of God we have, one who came for the poor and for the rich, He came into this world humbly so everyone would feel loved by Him. I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas!
The Birth of Jesus
1 About that time Caesar Augustus ordered a census to be taken throughout the Empire.2 This was the first census when Quirinius was governor of Syria.3 Everyone had to travel to his own ancestral hometown to be accounted for.4 So Joseph went from the Galilean town of Nazareth up to Bethlehem in Judah, David’s town, for the census. As a descendant of David, he had to go there.5 He went with Mary, his fiancŽe, who was pregnant.
6 While they were there, the time came for her to give birth.7 She gave birth to a son, her firstborn. She wrapped him in a blanket and laid him in a manger, because there was no room in the hostel.
An Event for Everyone
8 There were sheepherders camping in the neighborhood. They had set night watches over their sheep.9 Suddenly, God’s angel stood among them and God’s glory blazed around them. They were terrified.10 The angel said, “Don’t be afraid. I’m here to announce a great and joyful event that is meant for everybody, worldwide:11 A Savior has just been born in David’s town, a Savior who is Messiah and Master.12 This is what you’re to look for: a baby wrapped in a blanket and lying in a manger.”
13 At once the angel was joined by a huge angelic choir singing God’s praises:14 Glory to God in the heavenly heights, Peace to all men and women on earth who please him.
15 As the angel choir withdrew into heaven, the sheepherders talked it over. “Let’s get over to Bethlehem as fast as we can and see for ourselves what God has revealed to us.”16 They left, running, and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby lying in the manger.17 Seeing was believing. They told everyone they met what the angels had said about this child.18 All who heard the sheepherders were impressed.
19 Mary kept all these things to herself, holding them dear, deep within herself.20 The sheepherders returned and let loose, glorifying and praising God for everything they had heard and seen. It turned out exactly the way they’d been told!
Ok so after a terrifyingly stressful weekend of studying, my hard finals are finally over. I have one more final on Thursday but I have an A in that class and it should be easy. But anyways, sorry I haven’t written but I have been doing so much studying my brain has turned to mush. Fortunately though even though I’m worried about what my final grades will be I have this awesome feeling of accomplishment similar to how Frodo felt after throwing the ring into the fiery chasm from whence it came. *Sigh* Relief. Never again will I be taking Anthropology. Will not happen.
Anyways, my weekend consisted of, studying, ice skating Friday night (and falling only once! Well sorta twice but the second time was just because of a domino affect that knocked me over when I was standing at the rail), Christmas shopping for a While Elephant party on Saturday, more studying and getting a drastic haircut (I’m at work now so I don’t have the access to my pictures but I’ll post some later!), having a deep discussion Saturday night til 3am, going to church Sunday morning, studying, having a floor Christmas party where we watched a Charlie Brown Christmas and I got a pack of fake mustaches for the White Elephant gift (Thanks again, Connor, I kinda love them!) and studying some more. Yesterday I took my Cultural Anthropology final, played with NERF guns for a while, studied for today’s Physical Anthropology final (hearby known as the most evil thing in existence), watched Lord of the Rings: Return of the King for inspiration, then was rudely awoken at 3 this morning by the fire alarm in my building. This morning I studied some more, took the final and went to work so now I’m feeling quite relieved and much happier (though quite tired as well). So sorry that this post has been a random jumble of thoughts but there you go! I’ll post pictures of my hair and our Christmas party later!
Hope you’re all doing quite well! :)
Since it’s only a little bit til Christmas, I decided to make a list of my top favorite Christmas movies to share! Christmas is obviously a wonderful time of the year and awesome Christmas movies make it even better!
You just really can’t go wrong with this movie, it’s hilarious, it has Zooey Deschanel, it’s super quotable, it puts you in the Christmas spirit, it’s just brilliant.
2. A Charlie Brown Christmas
Definitely a classic Christmas movie. They’re just so cute and it makes you happy! Plus the Peanuts characters are just so lovable!
3. White Christmas
A Classic, a musical, has Bing Crosby and Danny Kaye, what could be better? I don’t even like snow and this movie makes it look exciting. I just love the old dancing and singing. It makes me happy. I wish they still made quality movies like this.
4. It’s A Wonderful Life
Another classic and who doesn’t love Jimmy Stewart? Because this is my mom’s all time favorite movie, I could probably quote this whole thing to you from the massive amount of times that I’ve seen it but it’s still a good one. The message is a great one and it’s a wonderful, adorable story! Definitely a good reminder of the spirit of Christmas.
5. The Nightmare Before Christmas
Ok, honestly I’m not sure whether I would consider this a Christmas movie or a Halloween movie but it’s awesome whatever it is. And it’s by Tim Burton. And I mean, it has the word Christmas in it, right? Whatever, it might be weird but I love it.
6. National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation
I’m a little ashamed to admit that I’ve actually only seen this movie once and it was just last year but I did love it and most people really enjoy it and consider it a classic Christmas movie for sure. Plus it’s pretty hilarious.
7. Harry Potter
Yeah, this is probably not technically considered Christmas but hey, there’s Christmas scenes in almost all of them, and ABC Family plays them on the 25 Days of Christmas, so it counts. Maybe. Yeah, we’ll just go ahead and say it counts.
8. Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe
Probably should have put this higher on the list since it’s like my favorite story ever and the book was written by my hero, C.S. Lewis. Plus it’s how about it’s always winter and never Christmas. So I count it as a Christmas movie. Not to mention it’s purely wonderful and magic.
9. Love Actually
Ok, I’ve definitely mentioned my hatred of Chick flicks enough for you all to be surprised that this is included but this movie has Alan freaking Rickman in it. And some other really good actors, so that’s what makes it good. Plus, though I hate to admit it, it is kind of *chokes on the word* cute. There I said it. It’s a cute chick flick.