I wish I knew how to love myself. I wish I knew how to stop loving him.

It’s weird, knowing things objectively – like, we don’t belong together, this break up is for the best, I’m worthy of love because Jesus loves me, things like that, but not being able to truly know them.  I don’t see anything good in myself – I really never have and I want to but don’t know how to begin.

It’s a month today – I’m sitting in my room eating ice cream and crying. This week will actually be good, I have a lot of plans and things will be good. Right now- 11pm by myself, this is not good. I want healing to be easier. I want to be the person God wants me to be and I wish I knew how to do all of those things.

Growing up and having a broken heart is so much harder than one would imagine.

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About elvishjesusfreak

I'm learning to love and be and grow up and things are hard but God is always so good.

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  1. rhiggins75 says :

    I know from personal experience how hard its to suffer a broken heart, but I also know that God allows hearts to be broken, so that when they mend and yours will it will be bigger, wider, and more beautiful than before. You are God’s precious daughter and he loves you not for who you will be but for who you are. He has a plan for your life. if you let his plan unfold, then you will be blessed beyond your wildest dreams. I am struggling with the same thing, yet I have faith that with God all things are possible and that leaves nothing out. I hope this helps.

    • elvishjesusfreak says :

      Wow, somehow I never saw this comment but thank you, so much. That means a lot and it does help, I’m doing better now and I’m so glad that God does have us no matter what and loves us through everything.

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