The State of My Heart

My heart is happy, full of hope and love. For the first time ever I know love actually exists and even better I’m experiencing it. I’m happier than I knew I could be.

My heart is also sad, and lonely. Through my happiness and my first time in love which is absolutely perfect, it’s hard being away from him. “You can love someone so much but you can never love people as much as you can miss them.”, John Green says, and I think he’s right. Long distance is hard, and it hurts, but it’s worth it I believe.

My heart is also full and broken, not for me, but for my friends. My friends who is hurting, my friends who is heart broken, my friend who is discouraged, my friend who is suicidal.

My heart is also tired. Tired of not being good enough for my parents, for not feeling worth anything, for being afraid to be forgotten, again.

Overall though, my heart is actually doing well, I’m happy, I’m feeling better about things than I have in forever and I am in love and I am happy.


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About elvishjesusfreak

I'm learning to love and be and grow up and things are hard but God is always so good.

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