Feelings (More angst. Oops.)
People tell me I apologize too much for too many things but this is why, I don’t feel good. I will always feel bothersome and annoying. I feel like nothing I do is good enough, I don’t feel smart enough, pretty enough, normal enough (I’m getting more awkward and creepy by the day here guys…) and I don’t feel like I’m enough at all.
I know that honestly those are lies, God thinks I’m good enough and therefore I am but sometimes that doesn’t help. I feel sad and not good enough and I don’t know what to do about it. Which makes me angsty again and I hate it.
Everyone around me seems to be getting married or engaged and I’m sitting here trying to be patient and not care and being more single than I’ve ever been at my life. Here I am, almost a month before my 21st birthday and I’ve never been on a date or been kissed.
I just wish I knew how to fix all these things.