Just stop it, please.
Again with the parents. Again, skip if you don’t want to hear (or I guess read about it…) but I have to get it out. Tonight it was about my appearance and personality. I hate chick flicks, I always have, I just think they’re too angsty and sappy. They’ve known this for years, I’ve never liked them with the exception of the occasional few romantic comedies (Emphasis on the comedy). They’ve known this but tonight they decided to tell me that I really need to start liking them and be softer because no guy is going to like a girl that’s “Hard and tough”. Um…. I’m not hard or tough… Just because I don’t like chick flicks doesn’t mean anything. And last I checked, guys don’t like girls who are over girly and pansies. Correct me if I’m wrong here please but oh my goodness… Then they started in on my appearance. Apparently, no guy, at least no nice guy would even look twice at a girl who has dyed hair and a nose ring. I “used to look so pretty” before I did this to myself. Hmm. Funny how I thought they had always told me to be myself and not change for anyone. If a guy doesn’t like who I am then why would I want to be with them anyways?
And they act like I’m not trying here, I am! I want to have a guy who cares about me and loves me like that, it just hasn’t happened yet. It’s not because of anything I’m doing, it’s because God’s plan obviously doesn’t include that yet.
Mom keeps complaining how I didn’t meet very many guys at college and by the time she was finished with her freshman year she had met “hundreds” of guys. Ok, well college has OBVIOUSLY changed because I did everything I could! I went to Bible study every Tuesday and Thursday night (besides the nights I had to work), I went to church on Sundays, I went to all the events the three dorms in my complex put on. I have lots of guy acquaintances at college, just not too many guy friends. It’s not my fault but mom’s just sure it is.
At least I only have a month and a half left of summer now. It’s so depressing to be at home. :(